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Finding My Practice

Lorelei

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I've been having a hard time getting to my mat since my mom died last month.  I know my practice will help me heal, yet it eludes me.  I've been running and lifting and generally working out at the gym.... but yoga.....yeah.  I haven't left it completely, not by a long shot.  Since I'm currently in a 6-month long YTT program, I'm working on the mat, for sure.  But, it's missing something.  I think the missing part is my heart.  I know it'll come back, and I'll keep trying.  Until then, I've gotta just feel what I'm feeling and be patient.  (And I'm trying to be grateful for the opportunity to work on my patience.......not my favorite thing!)

yogamat.jpg.51d8bd1eab85ccb95bacab90e21e  (Notice that I am ON my mat.......not giving up! Good thoughts!)

 


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All in good time. I find that I have a hard time really delving (or even approaching) my personal practice when I have a lot emotionally going on. It's never a conscious thought - but I think subconsciously I just avoid it because I know how the practice works. It makes us really confront ourselves raw and unedited, and sometimes I just can't bear to face it, or even if I think I'm ready, I have a hard time letting my guard down. I'll bet that one day when you least expect it, you will find yourself deep in one of the most authentic practices and then you will be back in the groove.

Good for you for recognizing where you are at, and for not giving up. Keep it up.

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Yeah I'm the same as Benskip55. If there is something major I'm dealing with, I tend to avoid my personal practice like the plague only because the practice is like a mirror inside my soul and makes me confront all the tough stuff. It's very hard...but there's always a period of time where I avoid, and then it's like somehow my body knows when I'm ready to deal with it and I'll start craving getting on the mat for ME. I think the same will happen for you - you just have so much going on right now between YTT and everything. Sending you so much love and strength. 

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8 hours ago, YogaByCandace said:

Yeah I'm the same as Benskip55. If there is something major I'm dealing with, I tend to avoid my personal practice like the plague only because the practice is like a mirror inside my soul and makes me confront all the tough stuff. It's very hard...but there's always a period of time where I avoid, and then it's like somehow my body knows when I'm ready to deal with it and I'll start craving getting on the mat for ME. I think the same will happen for you - you just have so much going on right now between YTT and everything. Sending you so much love and strength. 

Thank you, Candace.  Very much.

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