msinkblot

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  1. Do any of you have periods in which you just stop practicing after a life change? Recently I came back from Singapore and I experienced such a physical /emotional / spiritual overhaul there that it came upon me like a tide change. Upon returning to Montreal, I haven't actually done my daily practice. Partly because I realize I was unconsciously using it as a way to 'exercise', and not to really be calm (although it did make me calm). I've been interested in perhaps pursuing a softer, yin practice and I've been exploring pranayama. But I find it's kind of hard to explore that side of yoga... which is what I"m interested in. I have zero motivation to do arm balances (although I still do inversions for fun) or a vigorous 'strong' practice. Ironically I have lost weight... maybe that's part of the reason why I'm not keen to pursue a strong practice. Do you guys have any experience experiencing such a period of 'drought' from physical asana? I really want to go back into yoga, but I don't know quite how to start. I want to enter it from the other limbs... if you guys have suggestions, I'd been so grateful!
  2. Wow, hippotherapy sounds great. I've always wanted to be with horses, but I guess I will have to wait till Singapore where horse-riding is a thing (they probably have therapy too, although I'd like to take up riding all the same :D). We don't really have a stables in Montreal, strangely! Only the police ride horses, haha. Your horses sound really sweet, and I imagine being around animals is very soothing, like a form of yoga. As for disordered eating/ eating disorders, I think I exhibited clear signs of disordered eating perhaps when I was 17-18 (say, 8 years ago) for a short period. But I had no idea 'how to eat', and the food at home was not to my tastes so everything turned me off (I had just moved from Singapore to Canada). I had a period of just eating nuts and oatmeal because I disliked my stepmum's cooking. I couldn't digest it, though, and I had stomach issues every single day (maybe 'healthy food' works for some people, but for me it doesn't). I was used to eating rice, fish, soft white bread everyday and the rice at home was too dry, the meat and everything was too oily I couldn't eat it. The only time we ate fish... it was deep-fried and I disliked it. I was already a picky eater, but this was different. Somehow this turned a switch on in my brain... and I think that was what triggered it. I sort of decided to try and make all my own meals... and as a 17 year-old, it spiralled down into disordered eating. Nowadays, the 'switch' is off. I don't get urges to not eat or eat less... if I eat less on a given day, I actually feel guilty about it and try to make up for it. I let myself have 2nd and 3rd dessert if I want or a snack at 1am (I do this almost everyday because it helps me to sleep). I have difficulties eating in the afternoon, so allowing myself food at night works. I found a way around those neural circuits and gradually I think they changed. It took about 3 years though for the thoughts to disappear so they were not dominant. And till then I still had episodes of conscious/subconscious restriction followed by binge episodes when my body panicked. I never gained or lost weight during these episodes after the initial gain (to get my period back), so it was mostly a mental battle.
  3. This post was very helpful for me too. I have a friend who also often catastrophes all the time when we talk, and it can be frustrating when she brings up the same anxieties again and again. I love the idea of journaling / writing down stuff. I have a friend with BDD who says she uses a similar technique: she writes down the worst anxieties she has in almost fiction way, and plays them out. And miraculously, it gets rid of them as if by writing the worst possible scenarios that could happen, she realizes they are not so bad... I also have the same technique that @becca515 mentioned that I find useful. Although for me, I try to reach inside my energy body and feel the cord, and cut it. Sometimes I use a physical object. Before I cut it though, I make an evocation ie. "What I do is for the highest good". It works like magic for me if something gets too intense, as long as the cord doesn't grow back, haha! I find visualization + ritual can be such a powerful tool when simple meditation does not help. Which is the case for me.
  4. Thanks @KateZena! I've sort of fallen out of my yoga practice but recently I got a dream to draw Bow pose... I sort of dislike that pose a lot. But maybe I'll get to it sometime!
  5. @katezena That was a really beautiful story! And I can totally empathize. I also tend to lose weight in times of stress/changes/ travel. I am (or was till 1 month ago) also a 95 pound girl who can't afford to lose weight... I lose 5 pounds in 2 weeks and take 6 months to gain it back. So losing weight because of those stressors can really make me careen backwards. Recently, I've been trying to incorporate Candace's "5 breath meditation" into my mealtimes. I will tune in for 5 breaths and most of the time, I realize how tense my body always is. It really helps me to have meal times be my "peaceful" time, haha. Having lost weight again after some recent travels (I was eating well but maybe not enough for the amount of walking I was doing), I'm trying to get back in the wagon of not letting my mood interfere with my appetite. It's definitely an ongoing journey. It's really nice to meet others with the same struggle. In a society in general celebrates losing weight, it's kind of hard to be in a position of having to gain weight without feeling a bit silly. You also mention equine therapy: how's that going with you? It sounds really lovely. I'd love to hear your experiences with that too.
  6. It looks beautiful!! You have similar wrists to me as well It's really hard to find a mala that fits perfectly huh? Although mine wraps around 6 times as well quite nice. Interesting choice of stones, as well! Is that lapis lazuli and amethyst? Very gorgeous. I attached a picture of mine as well. It's not very clear, but it's mostly grounding stones. It's a bit intense compared to yours, I think! But I swear it has helped my handstand practice. If it's psychological, it counts right? Haha.
  7. That sounds so lovely @yogafire! Can we have a picture!? I'm so curious!!
  8. Hi! I took my first aerials class yesterday and I LOVE IT. Oh, my arms though! They killed my arms. Although all the inversions I do in my yoga practice helped a lot. What I want to know is... have you guys ever tried the yoga trapeze? I've seen it around a bit and I want to know what you guys think. What was your experience? I'm thinking of getting one because it looks really fun. I also love the sensation of being upside down and it seems a nice way of leisurely dangling upside down without expending too much effort.
  9. That information is good to know @Anahata. I didn't know it was more of a gymnastics move. I was just kind of taken aback, haha! I was feeling really uncomfortable trying to do that- so much cranking on the back and neck argh!!!! I hate locust as it is!! But chinstand definitely feels more stable. I like to go into it from eka pada kondinayasana or from 3-legged dog and it feels quite OK. It can be a backbend or a handstand, although I prefer it as a slight backbend to updog. I was also confused because my instructor called it 'locust' and I was wondering if she was talking about chinstand or locust... I didn't know you could combine the two. Me: So you're talking about chinstand with a scorpion backbend? She: No, it's a locust variation. Me: i think I'm going to give it a pass.... I"m not sure about that (and I"m usually quite daring).
  10. I hate that variation of chinstand! My instructor tried to explain how to get into it because I asked for a challenge, and I was like "you're kidding right?" Put my fists under my stomach and what!?? Suffice to say I just do the regular one with chataranga arms...
  11. There are some moments when I"m doing my yoga practice that I feel I'm completely present and inside my body. I feel the yoga flow through me and it's a wonderful feeling! In that sense, I do feel that yoga is more a moving meditation more than everything. And as with any form of meditative activity, there are periods where you feel more 'at one' with yourself and periods where it is hard to get on your mat. For me, the yoga practice is a good way to 'reset' myself in any case so I feel more at peace, even if it's a few minutes of it.
  12. Thanks so much for the advice! I really love the school I inscribed in and here is the program: http://www.naada.ca/yoga-teacher-training/500-hour-certification/ Yeah, it's mostly because it's a long commitment (1-2 years) and I kind of want to teach right now! Also, a huge monetary investment and the difference between a 200hr and a 500hr is $2000 in my bank account, haha! I've heard of intensive trainings, and I'd love to do one, but I'm also more willing to invest that money into a course that I'm familiar with and I've heard a lot of good things about from friends and also other teachers in other studios. They do weekend intensives which fits well with my working schedule, but I may have to do sell some art to make up for the loss! I'm really really excited about starting, though. I ask also because so many people have done 200hr trainings and they say it is not enough... and it's rare to find people who have committed to a 500 hour training because it is a lot!
  13. Hi! I'm curious whether any of you have taken 500 hours programs as I've enrolled in one and I'm not sure what your opinions are on having more rather than less teacher training. Is 200hr very different from 500hr trainings? I've been told a lot that 200hr is really not enough. What are your opinions?
  14. Hi all! I got my mala in the mail today and I must confess I'm so in love It's so full of colours yet so grounded. It's made out of onyx, African bloodstone and marbled obsidian with a lava guru bead and a red tassel. My question for you guys is how you usually cleanse and program it? I saw Candace to an entry on using mala, but I wasn't 100% clear about what to do before I start using them. I kind of want them to make me feel grounded and protected, and to shield against negative energy (since I've been feeling a bit of that coming in lately).
  15. Haha I think this all the time! It's a reason why I want to teach it ^^