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  1. YogaByCandace liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Ways of getting back into practice after a 'drought'?   
    Do any of you have periods in which you just stop practicing after a life change? Recently I came back from Singapore and I experienced such a physical /emotional / spiritual overhaul there that it came upon me like a tide change. Upon returning to Montreal, I haven't actually done my daily practice. Partly because I realize I was  unconsciously using it as a way to 'exercise', and not to really be calm (although it did make me calm). I've been interested in perhaps pursuing a softer, yin practice and I've been exploring pranayama. But I find it's kind of hard to explore that side of yoga... which is what I"m interested in. I have zero motivation to do arm balances (although I still do inversions for fun) or a vigorous 'strong' practice. Ironically I have lost weight... maybe that's part of the reason why I'm not keen to pursue a strong practice.
    Do you guys have any experience experiencing such a period of 'drought' from physical asana? I really want to go back into yoga, but I don't know quite how to start. I want to enter it from the other limbs... if you guys have suggestions, I'd been so grateful!
  2. Ayaksma liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Yoga and eating disorders   
    I'm curious about your experience with yoga and eating disorders. Is it a safe way to treat EDs? Do any of you have any personal experiences?
    I know for me, it helped me to accept myself as I was, wherever I was, and not be so harsh on myself. I haven't had a diagnosable ED, but I have a few friends struggling with EDs at the moment and I'm wondering if yoga could become another harmful coping mechanism, or something beneficial. I have been in the position of having to gain weight to get my period back and it's a very frightening position to be in! So I can understand some of the struggle of recovery.
  3. YogaByCandace liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Ways of getting back into practice after a 'drought'?   
    Do any of you have periods in which you just stop practicing after a life change? Recently I came back from Singapore and I experienced such a physical /emotional / spiritual overhaul there that it came upon me like a tide change. Upon returning to Montreal, I haven't actually done my daily practice. Partly because I realize I was  unconsciously using it as a way to 'exercise', and not to really be calm (although it did make me calm). I've been interested in perhaps pursuing a softer, yin practice and I've been exploring pranayama. But I find it's kind of hard to explore that side of yoga... which is what I"m interested in. I have zero motivation to do arm balances (although I still do inversions for fun) or a vigorous 'strong' practice. Ironically I have lost weight... maybe that's part of the reason why I'm not keen to pursue a strong practice.
    Do you guys have any experience experiencing such a period of 'drought' from physical asana? I really want to go back into yoga, but I don't know quite how to start. I want to enter it from the other limbs... if you guys have suggestions, I'd been so grateful!
  4. YogaByCandace liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Ways of getting back into practice after a 'drought'?   
    Do any of you have periods in which you just stop practicing after a life change? Recently I came back from Singapore and I experienced such a physical /emotional / spiritual overhaul there that it came upon me like a tide change. Upon returning to Montreal, I haven't actually done my daily practice. Partly because I realize I was  unconsciously using it as a way to 'exercise', and not to really be calm (although it did make me calm). I've been interested in perhaps pursuing a softer, yin practice and I've been exploring pranayama. But I find it's kind of hard to explore that side of yoga... which is what I"m interested in. I have zero motivation to do arm balances (although I still do inversions for fun) or a vigorous 'strong' practice. Ironically I have lost weight... maybe that's part of the reason why I'm not keen to pursue a strong practice.
    Do you guys have any experience experiencing such a period of 'drought' from physical asana? I really want to go back into yoga, but I don't know quite how to start. I want to enter it from the other limbs... if you guys have suggestions, I'd been so grateful!
  5. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by yogafire in Ways of getting back into practice after a 'drought'?   
    A lot of us struggle returning to our practice. For me it was hard because I shamed myself, but, realizing that everyone has the same struggles too helped inspire me.
    Have you tried restorative with lots of props? I took a class in a studio - only 3 poses, each held for 30 min (probably a more extreme version of restorative than other places).  I was really overwhelmed and fell asleep in some, but, it helped me let go. This was the way I slowly got back into yoga after 3 months of being inactive with an injury and disliking how inactive I felt but not knowing what to do.
    You could have also lost weight from losing muscle mass from your inversion practice... so don't see it necessarily as indicators you are not taking care of yourself, but, just something that happens from the change in activity.
    I think you're still dealing with hypermobility, right? Just be careful to remain engaged in the muscles around your joints and not let completely loose if you do yin - the idea is to stay in a pose for 3-5 min to work out the ligaments that surround your joints.  That part scares me since my joints are already loose, and I'm looking for more stability.
    Welcome back from Singapore!
  6. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by KateZena in Yoga and eating disorders   
    @msinkblot I do therapeutic riding over hippotherapy. Therapeutic riding is basically horse lessons, only tailored for a person with needs (I have HF Autism, so mine is geared toward making me calmer, helping me think in stages and flexibility.) Hippotherapy is PT/OT/Speech therapy, whatever you need rolled in one on a horse which would have been great when I was little and had those things. Hippotherapy didn't exist when I was little; it started up when I was around four/five and wasn't covered by insurance. It's great for people who can't walk as horses are the closest thing to a human's stride.
    Our horses all have unique personalities, like all horses. Scooby is quite sweet to humans - especially older ones (he's not too fond of children) - but he will kick other horses if they come within his personal bubble. He's a good match for me as I'm a bit like that. I'm very smitten with horses and dogs, but I get a bit uppity when humans get in my personal bubble. We have a mare named Cupcake who just won't take crap from anyone; she likes to buck and needs an experienced rider. Apollo (his show name is Sir Clippity Clop) is this big draft horse who can be pushy. Red Rover is very ticklish. Chance loves everyone. Ernie is very tiny and cute. We have lots of horses (about 15) and I think I talk about them all of the time. HA HA! I'm still learning about the newest 5 to enter our little barn.
    Here's info on hippotherapy from Canada. You may be able to get more information from here as opposed to an American website: http://www.cantra.ca/en/our-services/hippotherapy
     
  7. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by KateZena in Yoga and eating disorders   
    @msinkblot You're right, it is so hard to be in a position where you have to gain weight in a society that's all about losing weight. You often find yourself explaining why you're trying to gain weight and it can feel like you're talking to a brick wall. Sometimes, when you lose even just a few pounds, people say, "You look fabulous," and it can create a system of bad thoughts (which began to happen to me and that's why I started therapy because I knew that was the beginning of an eating disorder) or you wonder what they have been taking because you don't feel you look good. I knew I wasn't in a good system of thought, so I got help. There's a difference between an eating disorder and disordered eating (which I'll leave a link to) and many people with ED have disordered eating.
    Oh, I love equine therapy! It's a lot of fun for me! I find it very peaceful, but very challenging at the same time. I did my last show to qualify for Illinois Special Olympics Friday and got second place in my class which is fine by me. I actually leveled up (as I call it) out of my NFP (sniff sniff) to Tribute Farms (which is next door!) and I'm being taught by a coach who can take me to more local competitions when he feels I can compete in them. When my coach isn't there and at a competition, I stay and work with someone from Horsefeathers Riding NFP, so it's the best of both worlds. I still ride the same horse - a quarter mix named Scooby Dooby Doo - in both barns so I'm really happy. I did Special Olympics last year so I won't be so nervous this year! It's a lot of fun.
    The NFP I go to works with people with disabilities, so you may not qualify if you're interested in the "therapy" part, but they (and most other NFPs) are always looking for volunteers! You still get a lot of the benefits while helping out. Many volunteers get the chance to be on the back of a horse, but it really depends on the place you go to. You will get to brush horses, feed them, muck the stalls, be a sidewalker (which is often what many volunteers say is the best perk; walking and guiding the horses and watching kids/adults do their therapy), pick up poop (I know, so much fun), tack up and tack down horses.
    I'm still learning many of the things dealing with horses, but when I'm done with my lesson, I always clip Scooby to his lead rope, put him away in his stall and tack him down (aka, take off his stuff), put his tack away and close his stall door. I also give him a treat after. I'm not allowed to tack him up as he is a bit temperamental despite my protests. ONE DAY! I'm very good with him. I know all of his crazy moods. I'd like to volunteer, but I'm still trying to get a little more comfortable with the layout and the horses before I fully commit. There are horses and ponies I'm very comfortable with (Red Rover, Chance, Captain America, Scooby) and some that give me the willies mostly because 1) I haven't ridden them (Vince, Ice, Cassie, Oreo, Wesley...) or 2) they are VERY tall (Apollo, Vince.) The more I learn their personalities, the less scared I am. Apollo, though, he just scares me and I've ridden him multiple times. He's stubborn out in the arena, pushy in his stall and he's plain HUGE compared to all 5'2.5" of me.
    Here's all about disordered eating and why it's different from eating disorders, dieting, and normal food behaviors:
    http://www.eatingdisorders.org.au/eating-disorders/disordered-eating-a-dieting
    If you're interesting in where I go to equine therapy or even why it's beneficial, here's my NFP's site (the video is AWESOME!):
    http://www.horsefeatherscenter.org/
    This is my little NFP in the New York Times (I still smile the biggest smile ever when I see this):
    http://well.blogs.nytimes.com/2016/07/05/with-hippotherapy-the-horse-provides-the-therapy/
  8. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by KateZena in Ways to calm our minds   
    Racing thoughts like in every day life or during yoga? I have both.
    What helps me in everyday life is taking out a piece of paper and literally writing every single thing that my mind is thinking about. I'm usually anxious when my mind is racing and just writing all the thoughts out helps me. I keep a bullet journal (Filofax/unjournaling/whatever you call it) with me so I have paper and pen accessible at all times.
    For yoga (and ironically helps in everyday life), I build a picture in my mind - in vivid detail - of something that makes me utterly happy (or calming) which is normally my dog, Zena. I "paint" a picture of her in my mind. I find it's the only way I don't "sleep" during that "meditation" bit at the end of Candace's videos. 5 minutes of imagining Zena or Scooby (the horse I ride) or something like that.
  9. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by yogafire in Ways to calm our minds   
     
    Good for you for being there. Just listening probably helped a lot - having someone external there can ground her back in reality, if she were catastrophizing by saying terrible things that were unrealistic.  Do you know if she's been able to sleep, or do the thoughts keep her up at night? It's a horrible cycle if it's causing her insomnia since sleep deprivation just feeds it. Please encourage her to seek medical help if it gets worse or talk to a therapist or a crisis hotline.
    If it's causing insomnia, then for me, it's not just a matter of calming one's mind, but tiring oneself out to let go of those thoughts so I can sleep.  Exercise to exhaustion (safely), such as sprinting, or doing hatha yoga (e.g. holding a twisting lunge for 20 breaths), makes me focus on the physical exertion.  Or, do indulgent self-care to escape, such as playing a game or watching a favorite TV show or movie. Like others said, breathing exercises are good for calming and get enough oxygen into the system.
    For other cases, here is a "Coping Thoughts" method I learned from a program on emotion regulation and mindfulness skills:
    "Coping thoughts are designed to soothe your emotions when you're in a distressing situation. They are statements that remind you of your strength, your past successes, and some commonly held truths."
    Here's a list of some coping thoughts that many people have found to be helpful (source: McKay et al., 1997)
    Mistakes happen; nobody's perfect. This situation won't last forever. I've already been through many other painful experiences, and I've survived. This too shall pass. My feelings are like a wave that comes and goes. My feelings make me uncomfortable right now, but I can accept them. I can be anxious and still deal with the situation.  (acknowledge duality, not everything is black and white) I'm strong enough to handle what's happening to me right now. This is an opportunity for me to learn how to cope with my fears. I can ride this out and not let it get to me. I can take all the time I need right now to let go and relax. I've survived other situations like this before, and I'll survive this one too. My anxiety / fear / sadness won't kill me; it just doesn't feel good right now. These are just my feelings, and eventually they'll go away. It's ok to feel sad / anxious / afraid sometimes. My thoughts don't control my life; I do. I can think different thoughts if I want to. I'm not in danger right now. So what? This situation sucks, but it's only temporary. I'm strong and I can deal with this. Of course these aren't for everyone - I only liked six of these, but, in practice, you only really need one that you like.
     
  10. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by Anahata in Ways to calm our minds   
    I had a conversation with a friend the other day. She was talking about her mind racing with thoughts that weren’t helpful to her and some that were quite terrible. Which happens to all of us from time to time. At the time I was drawing a blank to try and think of what I do to help myself with this. I do not intend to try and help her with this since she didn’t ask for help and I am not sure I would give good advice either. I think she was just looking someone to talk to.   Ever since then I have been trying to think of what I do for myself to try and calm my mind. I know I do something. But I am really struggling with organizing different methods into something that makes sense. I was wondering if others can offer their ideas of what is sometimes helpful for this.  
  11. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by KateZena in Yoga and eating disorders   
    I don't think yoga solves ED, but it can be used as a tool to help learn to cope with some of the problems that come with having problem with eating issues, not just ED. This is a bit personal, but I think it will help you understand by what I mean by that.
    Two years ago, on June 5, 2014, I lost my grams to a stroke. It took her six months to succumb to that stroke and it was very painful to watch her die. Two months later, my great-aunt, one of her only surviving sisters (and undoubtedly my favorite) passed from cancer and then about a month later, my brother basically said at midnight (of course), "Hey, guess what! You're all becoming grandparents and an aunt!" and his girlfriend was 20 weeks pregnant. Having autism, that was just what broke everything. My eating patterns, which had been out of whack since December 2013 - when my grams had her stroke - really careened out of control. I lost something like 15 pounds and for someone who was 95 pounds, that was weight I couldn't lose and my behavior really got out of whack.
    I started equine therapy February 2015 and regular therapy May 2015 to help with my eating and was diagnosed with disordered eating. I started doing yoga at home to help me learn calmness because I could not handle being around my nephew as he was just too loud. The crazy loudness can trigger me to not eat. The bonus is it helps stretch out my muscles for equine therapy. I've learned when I'm feeling stressed, I have to go do some yoga to recenter. Just folding myself over helps switch my attention from, "It's getting too crazy, let's not eat anything to try and get some attention," to, "Okay, let's focus on myself and my breathing. Feel how my hair swishes and plays on the floor." It's silly but it works.
    I'm about 3 or 4 pounds shy of where I need to be now, but it's okay. I'm not going to get it all in 15 months, but I'm not skeletal anymore. I have the word "strength" tattooed behind my right ear to help remind me of my grandma (there's a few stories behind that!) and to listen to myself.
    Was that really long? I hope that wasn't long and emotional. I sometimes feel I get really long.
  12. yogafire liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Choosing/ customizing mala beads   
    Omg, this is perfect! I also love how specific stones have such different energetic personalities. I'm such a stone geek (if there is even such a thing). I do love Mala Kamala but it's too expensive for me ;_;. In the end, I just got a custom-order from Mountain Mala with 39 onyx beads, 39 marbled obsidian 39 African bloodstone beads (for a grounding mala). I don't want stones that are too spacey because they aggravate my dreams and make my third eye too active (if there is such a thing. There is for me!).
     This the shop:
    https://www.etsy.com/shop/MountainMalas
    She seems to make their malas with a lot of love. I'm going to wait for it to arrive and report back about how I find it.
  13. yogafire liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Choosing/ customizing mala beads   
    It looks beautiful!! You have similar wrists to me as well It's really hard to find a mala that fits perfectly huh? Although mine wraps around 6 times as well quite nice. Interesting choice of stones, as well! Is that lapis lazuli and amethyst? Very gorgeous. I attached a picture of mine as well. It's not very clear, but it's mostly grounding stones. It's a bit intense compared to yours, I think! But I swear it has helped my handstand practice. If it's psychological, it counts right? Haha.

  14. yogafire liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Choosing/ customizing mala beads   
    It looks beautiful!! You have similar wrists to me as well It's really hard to find a mala that fits perfectly huh? Although mine wraps around 6 times as well quite nice. Interesting choice of stones, as well! Is that lapis lazuli and amethyst? Very gorgeous. I attached a picture of mine as well. It's not very clear, but it's mostly grounding stones. It's a bit intense compared to yours, I think! But I swear it has helped my handstand practice. If it's psychological, it counts right? Haha.

  15. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by yogafire in Choosing/ customizing mala beads   
    of course! I attach a picture that Sarah took for me outdoors since the beads do look different in sunlight. Luckily, we have the same wrist sizes so she was able to model for me!
    I also show it on my own wrist and as a double necklace indoors, taken last night, so more yellow hue. I'm probably wearing it more indoors anyway, so it's interesting to me to compare the colors.
    Another interesting fact.. I chose stones that I thought would help me the most with what I want to focus on - being true to myself and not being afraid or anxious to express how I feel.  I ended up having heart, throat, and some crown chakra (helps an overactive mind and assist with sleep problems). I skipped over root chakra without realizing it, but I'm happy with these intentions.

     



  16. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by YogaByCandace in Core Engagement   
    The core is a weird thing. I think a lot of people think that the core just means the mirror abs, but really, the core (at least for me) is about what's deep, deep within the trunk. I think it might be worth looking into firing up your core first thing when you're practicing over the next week or two. Start with a core practice like this or this, and maybe practice uddiyana bandha. Essentially, learn how to connect with your core. From there, start engaging it when you're doing poses or transitions within your practice that incorporate core strength, like stepping to the front of the mat from downward dog, or in poses like tree, where you can tap into that deep core strength by bringing the belly button in and then upward a bit for more stability in the pose. But not all poses need to have core engagement - you just need to hone in on which need it and which don't. Trust yourself as you figure out which require it, and enjoy the process.
  17. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by MalaKamala in Mala Bead Meditation   
    A mantra must come from the heart for it to be effective, it has to be something meaningful to you weather in Sanskrit or one you make up yourself - as long as it comes from a place of sincerity and devotion you can use it effectively for your practice!
     
  18. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by Anahata in Full Locust Pose   
     "you're kidding right?" Exactly
    Yes thank you Msinkblot and Larry. I understand now. The ‘pose’ chin/chest stand in Larry’s pictures is more from gymnastics than yoga. Many people have severely hurt their back or neck attempting that one. Lay on the floor and fling the legs up in the air. There is not much integrity to stay safe.
    The safer version in yoga is the pose called Uttana Salabhasana. Photo credit Absolutely Ashtanga - Tiffany 

     
    It is a handstand (or Chaturanga type) with the chin just barely touching the ground. All the weight in the hands. And it is entered much differently and safely. Start seated and press up into the pose like pressing up into a handstand or a similar. Or lower down into it from handstand. This way if the strength isn’t there the pose becomes impossible and the person won’t get into it, so much safer.
    People can do it anyway they wish but I am not going to visit in the hospital.
  19. brenskip55 liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Full Locust Pose   
    I hate that variation of chinstand! My instructor tried to explain how to get into it because I asked for a challenge, and I was like "you're kidding right?" Put my fists under my stomach and what!?? Suffice to say I just do the regular one with chataranga arms...
  20. Hildegard liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Bliss and what asanas or practices cause it   
    There are some moments when I"m doing my yoga practice that I feel I'm completely present and inside my body. I feel the yoga flow through me and it's a wonderful feeling!  In that sense, I do feel that yoga is more a moving meditation more than everything. And as with any form of meditative activity, there are periods where you feel more 'at one' with yourself and periods where it is hard to get on your mat. For me, the yoga practice is a good way to 'reset' myself in any case so I feel more at peace, even if it's a few minutes of it.
  21. Hildegard liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Bliss and what asanas or practices cause it   
    There are some moments when I"m doing my yoga practice that I feel I'm completely present and inside my body. I feel the yoga flow through me and it's a wonderful feeling!  In that sense, I do feel that yoga is more a moving meditation more than everything. And as with any form of meditative activity, there are periods where you feel more 'at one' with yourself and periods where it is hard to get on your mat. For me, the yoga practice is a good way to 'reset' myself in any case so I feel more at peace, even if it's a few minutes of it.
  22. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by YogaByCandace in 200 hr or 500hr training?   
    My 200hr was really, really intense. I do feel like it was enough to get a solid start and teach confidently. I did an intensive 6 week program on site, so even though it was just meant to be 200 hours, I felt  like it was a 24hr thing every single day haha. That being said, I would la-la-love to do an addition 300hrs but can't commit to the time (and I also think they're so so so expensive). I'm not sure 300 will ever be in the cards for me but I hope so. In the meantime, I love taking intensive master classes, workshops and drop in classes at different studios to keep learning.  
  23. msinkblot liked a post in a topic by brenskip55 in 200 hr or 500hr training?   
    My only opinion right now is that I'm super jealous! When I took my 200hr training it was like firehose learning - you can only really hang onto so much information. I'd absolutely love to have the chance to do another training, but sadly, I'm not in the position to commit that much time to it right now. Some day for sure. I think it's a great idea to learn as much as you can. Congrats!
    I'm curious to know which program you've enrolled in?
    Again - Jealous!
  24. YogaByCandace liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in 200 hr or 500hr training?   
    Hi! I'm curious whether any of you have taken 500 hours programs as I've enrolled in one and I'm not sure what your opinions are on having more rather than less teacher training. 
    Is 200hr very different from 500hr trainings? I've been told a lot that 200hr is really not enough. What are your opinions?
  25. afriske liked a post in a topic by msinkblot in Does anyone...   
    Haha I think this all the time! It's a reason why I want to teach it ^^